♥please don take him away from me♥

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I don know how to said Juz now thing
i only know tat now i very regret
Juz now i message ruixiang then he reply me but the message really make me very sad
end up he called me then i reject he's call
I'm so regret now
but then I have no choice
i cant like last time everything let him
because de more i let him de more he don see me and hate me
last time i will let him win becuase i truly love him
haiz
but then he call me i very happy la
i still rmb de time he's called me lo
is 1020pm^^
later 11am I'm going back to northland sec settle my thing
after tat went to find lawyer again
the most suffer for me is not i going in
is when I'm about to going in still cant see ruixiang
haiz
nvm la i already know le
seriouly i had enough for those past two year de hurt tat ruixiang given to me
not tat i don love ruixiang anymore
is i really had enough le
my tears for him already dry
really i wont be same as last time treat him le
everything let him win
this time not my fault i will fight for it
everythings let time and nature take place ba

Ruixiang onces de thing i said i sure will do
i wont forgetten the promises

In love with my best friend, @ 4:03 AM

everything had change

Later i'm going to sp
but then i don know want to go anot
because everytime i go got alot of thing happen de
i like to go sp alot but then everytime got alot of thing happen de
haiz
think i go ba
cause i want to buy thing
keke
everything juz let nature take place ba

i miss him alot right now
said want to give up
but then still love him alot
haiz

wat should i do?!
u know I'm really worry about u mah
while i worry about u now
maybe u now being with a gals
but then as long as u happy can le la
now i don want to being with u
seriouly as long as u happy can le
tat my wish

but u had change alot
i don know wat thing happen to u make u change alot
sure something very sad thing happen to u
tC'

now im going to sp le
maybe when i come back zai blog ba

In love with my best friend, @ 8:14 PM

Tired+loving

Juz take cab went to hougang and faster take cab back-.-
the cab fair was so exp it
but no choice
because i was fcuking tired
once i promise people thing i must done it
seriouly i'm thnking tat didnt i know wrong people until now or didnt i too trust people le

ruixiang u had change
change until a person tat i don know
i don know is i too understand u
or at first wo ju don understand u at all
not tat everything u want ju u want
u don want ju can don want
last time i also same as u
but thing we cant contral it
but then now it already too late
don wait until u lost it zai treasure and regret it
i really don wish this thing happen to u

now i'm feeling sleepy
feel like going to sleep
think i go to sleep first ba

goodnight:)

In love with my best friend, @ 1:10 AM

:(....

I'm Really very disappointed on you-.-
How u treat me I'll treat u back
I only can said good lucky to u
once de thing broke it's wont be back again

In love with my best friend, @ 7:56 PM

I'm fcuking very lucky

Hey People don call my phone look for me le

My phone are in police station

not with me

Anything Juz text my blog i will reply u soon

past two day ago i kanna caught by police-.-
because of drug
today Juz come out
this time round no longer at amk hq le
is at cantonment:(
i being charge by 13sentence :(
i will apply lawyer to fight to the end

haiz I sure will go in de
but don know the sentence is short or long and at where -.-
tml and two week later i need to go back to cantonment report
the place so far haiz
this time very specious
when i'm inside i know i sure will be going for court
but don know is when
i'm not scare i go in because i know watever bad thing u do sure will get the punishing
but i really scare i cant come out to see ruixiang
when i'm inside i keep sleep and sleep beside sleep i miss ruixiang alot -.-
really alot haiz

the CnB very bad?!
fcuking very bad-.-
keep want me to tell him who i get from
they think I'm the person tat will tell them
end up i didnt tell them they charge me traffic
i sure will fight for it de fcuk
i don want to said le de more i said de more angry am i

people now is i want to meet u all also cant le
because i'm going in soon
u all have to take good care of yourself

ruixiang how i wish i can meet u now-.-
this is my wish before i go in haiz

In love with my best friend, @ 7:07 PM

only u can make me lost myself

Suddenly don have de mood to blog

haiz

This few days i was busy with my la la land^^

keke

i don know y i can sleep and sleep and sleep until i lazy to wake up -.-

now so tired -.-

de more i sleep de more tired am i

haiz

pie-haiz yo don said i not good never jio u out when i free hor is u too busy with dating^^

Enjoy^^meet you soon

Jerlin baobei-I miss u la stupid^^

i never call u then u wont call me de ar:)

BrendaC-u also another one same as pie hor^^

want guy don want me liao la *sad*

when u free then give me a call meet me ba^^

even on tat day i not free also will die die take out my time meet u^^

only u then got hor ^^

keke

Get well soon^^

brenda-JyJy for your N level:)

Stay happy^^

Ruixiang-This few days keep raining rmb don get cold N sick

must take good care of yourself

Stay happy

In love with my best friend, @ 1:38 PM

u very bad leii

Good morning:)
Hahah i from ytd until now haven sleep yet
don know now is my good morning or good night^^
Ytd night i went out with my friend to alot of place
And the alot of place only two place let me rmb two people
First is ruixiang the place at Amk to geylang
Another place is Amk the person is Brenda C
after tat reach home around 2plus *tired*
The tired is not tat kind of sleepy
the tired is u tired but cant sleep (because i sleep alot in this two day)

after tat was busy with housework until now then can rest
hahah i like the feeling tat do finish de housework
because it feel very relax and very clear
but i hate de feeling tat when i do finish housework go sleep then wake up
because it messy again
Haiz

Juz now when i doing housework my mind was thinking about ruixiang and de past tat i with him
suddenly i rmb one sentence he had told me "Got guy want to jio u then u accept la Y u so stupid"the time i saw this message my feeling was very sad and angry then my heart was like broke into many piece
its take alot of day for me to recover
and y must i accept guy when my heart got him
after tat i very angry and show it to him
i really accept one of the guy tat jio me
end up Ruixiang win
i lost
because i really cant take it when my heart got someone i with other guy together
i with the guy less then 2week ju break
because inside my heart de more day i with other guy together
the more i feel very sorry to ruixiang but not the guy
and became more love ruixiang
tat y when i fall in love with ruixiang i didnt even go think for any guy
haiz

blog again
I go rest first quite tired le

In love with my best friend, @ 5:51 AM

I miss you alot right now

I Juz wake up-.-
because inside my room very cool until i cant sleep-.-
Now my head feel very pain-.-
waolao the pain make me want to cry liao la ;(
seriouly i don know wat happen to me this few day
everytime feel like sleeping and tired
then if i sleep le sure wake up very fast
but i know myself very well
if i really sleep well sure will MIA my friend got more then 24hour
suddenly i miss ruixiang alot
I miss de day
i stay in this world got 16 le
but the year tat make me feel very happy is 2007
although the year i got alot of bad thing happen
but is still de year i like it

Today is de first time tat i update my blog de text so long:)
i really cant take it the pain anymore
i go rest first

In love with my best friend, @ 7:47 PM

Juz come back from amk Hq *tired*

Juz now i went to Amk Hq police station Report about my Ah long thing
I was fcuking very angry with the weather
is very very very hot lo
somemore i don have enought sleep and very tired-.-
like this nvm leii
And i also fcuking very angry with the police tat told me wat will going on with my case
he anyhow said thing when my IO is not around there lo
He told me tat my IO want to charge me sec 14(1) cap 188 illegal lending money
the time i was surprice and angry after tat i scold the police and tell him i want to spoke to my IO than he make a call for me i also scold my IO
because really mah
i didnt do any wrong thing wat for their want to charge me
the time i will go back to Hq lock up they can laught liao hor
after i asking and scolding my IO
he ask me to go back first and wait for de call
he still said he didnt charge me
This case only investigation
after tat i really cant take it the sun and i very sleepy so i decide to take cab home and didnt went out
now i'm tired too-.-
but then seriouly u didnt do anything wrong they want to charge u
u sure angry and scold them back right plus de time i really very tired and sleepy
cause 3day i only sleep 7hour
Really tired -.-
somemore i didnt sleep i will have ap then the police men come and make me
i sure scold him de mah
the police men very lucky ar
keke

oh ya i find out my blog got alot of people read only never tag me:(
and even tag me also never use their real name :(
people tag me use your real name k ^^
i wont eat people de la hahah^^
and y some people like to read other people blog then don tag ar???

I said until here ba
I go sleep le
very sleepy plus tired now
wake up maybe will blog again^^
if i very free ^^
goodnight:)

In love with my best friend, @ 4:15 PM

I Juz have a nightmare

Past two day ago i didnt sleep -.-
Finally ytd night i fall sleep at 11plus^^
but then today early in the morning 0630am i awake
because i have a nightmare
wth-.-
wo dream dao ruixiang have a new girlfriend?!
her name call don know wat shirley ar i forgot her name already
and then her gf was look like xiao meimei the most worst thing is ruixiang move to her house stay(in my dream is nana tag me at my blog told me ruixiang move to her gf house tat y i know haha but she tag me after ruixiang tag me ->) and ruixiang come to my blog tag me tat ask me don contact him anymore and alot alot i forgot le
so end up i awake so early and i got try to sleep back
but then ju shi cant sleep back and my mind was all about ruixiang :(
so i decide not to sleep back le but now I'm tired -.-
Later i still need to go back to amk Hq report-.-
because of de ah long thing la *kao*
I not scare i kanna anything or wat is very lazy lo
need to go yck then back to sembawang
plus i not enough sleep and very tired
this week i go police station got two time le leii
I'm fcuking very lucky every hungry ghost year i sure kanna caught by police and hold in the custody
tat y ytd morning i went to 观音庙 with my mun to pray
then very real lo
I make a brief comment about my Love relationship
is a good comment
No.45
Be Flexible in your ways.A good person will reap good rewards.to the lucky soul who get this "chiam", is like a very thirsty person getting water to drink.
INTERPRETATION: Good
The gods and buddha will aid you,do not foolish and forget them.

when ytd i see it suddenly i feel like very stress and got thing i don understand :(
Ruixiang ask me to give up on him then suddenly i get this comment from gods ask me don be so foolish to give him and said i got chance Juz wait only
but in the real life i don think i and ruixiang got anymore chance le
he make me have a feeling tat he's don like me and hate me
I really don dare to go think anymore
I scare de more i think
de more i love him very deep like last time
until watever he want i will try my best to give him
but then he not the guy la :)
From last time until now he didnt even ask anything from me
only ask me don fall for him and give up on him
All the thing he ask i sure will do and give
even want my life i also don mind
I'm willing to die for him
seriouly don laught
yup is trust I'm foolish and stupid
but as for me he is the only right and fit guy tat i will do
(don said my family la)
and i swear if i can give up ruixiang i sure wont love a guy very deep like how i love ruixiang past and now
yup future who know?!
but i'll try my best don put so much feeling on any guy anymore once i give up ruixiang
Being love is very xinfu but love a person is very xingu thing
but then inside de xingu got happy too hor
haiz ya
I really tired liao la
i think if i can give up ruixiang i really need a very good rest

but then seriouly If one day really got people want to take knife to kill him
I'm also willing to run infront of ruixiang injury for him and take away the pain from him
(not run as far as ruixiang don care him how hor -.-
If i do this my name not call kathie)
but only the thing tat i cant do is give up on him and tat is the thing he ask me to do
I got try before to give up on him not tat i didnt try
maybe i really need alot alot of time to give up on him
It take one sec to fall in love with a person but once u want to give up a person tat u love
it take alot of time maybe one week,one month,one year,ten year or even whole of your life
If feeling can control ju hao le:(
Actually feeling can control leii but then the first place i do wrong thing is put too much feeling le
i don know how to explain tat how u control your feeling tat how exactly u put
is the first sign tat u fall for a person de time the first feeling

i think now everything let nature take place ba
my feeling for him already became tired but still love him tat kind of feeling
so far i really never regret love him
even i never be with him
我不介意为了他得不到回报
自要他开心就是我的回报
是你的就是你的
别人要挣也挣不到
不是你的挣到要死要活也不是你的

sorry my english not so good
but then u try to understand la haha
if don understand zai tag me
see?! never study the result

In love with my best friend, @ 7:57 AM

Fcuking tired -.-

In love with my best friend, @ 5:22 AM